Lately, my morning routine consists of drinking a cup of coffee with my partner while sharing our dreams. Afterward, I read a meditation book by Krishnamurti called The Book of Life: Daily Meditation. Krishnamurti wrote 365 meditations dedicated to each day of the year, geared to move us towards spiritual enlightenment.
These meditations force the reader into psychoanalysis, breaking down mental constructs created by past conditioning.
Today’s meditation focused on journaling feelings as they occur, to help strengthen our level of awareness.
As I began jotting down my emotion, I became aware of the way negative thoughts would show up. The feelings would range from worrying about finances to feelings of inadequacy regarding work, to fear of weight gain.
I was completely unaware of the excessive amount of negative thoughts I entertain throughout the day. I realized I spend more than 3/4″ of the day worrying about daily life struggles.
But who is concerned with survival? The ego, the ego concerns itself with petty problems that steal our ability to live in the present moment. How can a full mind have space for new creative ideas?
What if I told you the “Feel Good” moments only take up 5% of your day, while the rest of the day you are feeling worried, anxious, and afraid.
But these negative emotions are most likely not caused by your environment. They are caused by living in the past or future. Which is what we call living in your head.
Documenting our awareness can help redirect us into a more positive state of mind. To be able to connect with the divine, we must clear our communication channels. The mind must be empty to be filled.
Who is aware? Your ego or higher self? Have you paid close attention to your thoughts and feelings?